Handling Disappointments

I received an e-mail today from a writer for FIRST MAGAZINE. I have been working with her for a couple of weeks about using a true story I wrote for their magazine. She actually contacted me out of the blue after reading my story on a website. I was really excited, and after she continued to contact me asking for more information etc...to present the story to her editors, I began to get very hopeful. Today I received an email saying that they wont be able to use my story...I was really disappointed! I always wanted to have something I've written published...I'm not disciplined enough to finish a book, so the little short stories I do have been my only opportunity.

For most of my life I would always focus on the negative, then if something good happened I would be pleasantly surprised. I HATED to be let down...which was the case most of my life. I have changed a lot in the last couple of years. I now look at disappointments as opportunities! Once I got over the initial feelings of sadness that they didn't want my story...I thought, now maybe I can make a book out of this. It's a very touching and encouraging story and should be told. I believe things happen for a reason...I just have to trust and know that my life, (the good and the bad) is pushing me toward Heavenly Father's perfect plan for me...it's about faith, trust and most of all PATIENCE!

Families Possible Foreclosure (Part 2)

I woke up this morning really early, I was going to take Jullien to football practice and then head into work extra early. Today was pay day, thought I could put in a couple of extra hours to boost the $$$ amount. Of course I couldn't get out of bed when the alarm went off so I told Anthony he had to take him on his way to work.

I layed there starting to feel anxious and out of breathe...so I grabbed my daily devotionals off the nightstand...no, it's not a typo...devotional(s) as in plural, I have four separate books that I read, Battlefield of the Mind by Joyce Meyers...EVERYONE should get this book and read a chapter daily this is MY FAVORITE! Next is One Year Devotions for Mom's by Ellen Banks Elwell, then I move onto one chapter of More Joy for the Journey, written by several contributing author's, finally reaching for The Power of Praying, Help for a Woman's Journey Through Life, by Stormie Omartian...then the grand finale is of course THE BIBLE. I need lots of encouragement right now! It's funny how everyone always talks about having faith and trusting, but when your back is against the wall and you see no escape...even having faith is SCARY!

Today is D day, (D=Dread, Doom, Dagger, Depression, Dally, Damage, Disconnect), okay, I think you get the picture...can we make the payment or not?!? That is a question that doesn't really have one distinct answer. When looking at the situation, we can scrimp, squeeze, scrounge and scrape together every last cent we have and make the payment. The other side of the question is, "How will we eat, buy gas and pay all of our other bills?" So I guess my answer would have to be YES AND NO.

I wont drag this out anymore...my husband went and took a payment into the bank at about 3:30. We are still scraping the last bit of money together today. So, now the faith part has to come into play and work overtime!! We need to have money to live on for the next couple of weeks...here is the positive, I will get to see miracles in action, because that is what it will take for us to survive right now. I guess it will be a good thing because all of my family and friends will be able to see their prayers on our behalf getting answered...so PLEASE remember us!!

I will keep you all posted on the situation...thanks for everyone's love and support.

Here's my daily scripture:

"You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. "Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. "Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven." Matthew 5: 14-16