I tend to be a bit of a control freak...anticipating each and every possible scenario and looking for ways to shape it into the ideal situation. I usually am only like this with my immediate family.
I don't know, I think it's a protection thing...a mother's instinct.
When presented with certain trials, I work out all the different angles in my mind and then try to figure out the best course of action. I know that I can be a bit overbearing at times, but I just want to spare my family any unnecessary hurt and pain.
My son had to meet with some people today and I was a little leary of the whole thing due to a recent situation that happened leading up to this meeting.
I sat at home last night before the big meeting worrying the entire situation to death in my mind. At one point letting my emotions bring me to tears.
How can I protect my child if these people decide to hurt him emotionally?
A part of me wanted to call the whole thing off. Avoidance sometimes seems better than the unknown, endless possibilities that your mind can create when left to it's own devices.
I'm lucky to have such a wonderful husband. Who offered me his words of wisdom.
Lis, just let it go. It's out of your hands. There is nothing you can do, it is something that your son wants and needs to happen. Let go of all of your fear, hurt and what if's...turn it completely over to God and let him handle it.
He prayed with me & can I tell you how much peace I had immediately! The weight was lifted, I knew that the Lord heard our prayers and would work it all out.
I then continued to pray for the people who were to meet with my son. I prayed that they would open their hearts & minds and see what an amazing person he is.
He called me after it was done to say that it went well and that he thought they were really nice. He could tell they were just as nervous as he was.
I've decided to really work on controlling the control freak in me. When situations seem unbearable, when I feel myself losing it, I'm going to stop and immediately pray.
It's amazing how the Lord comforts and lifts the burdens.