Lisa Petrarca's Blog

Thursday, November 5, 2009

I GOT DISSED?

We had our dinner night last night. It went better than I expected, however I did get a little bit of a cold shoulder from someone who I have been friends with for about 9 years. She just wasn't herself with me. I guess I could feel it so I just didn't make an effort either. That's what I tend to do...just ignore, stand behind the safety of my carefully built wall. It has served to protect me from years of hurt. It's definitely served its purpose, however lately I've been praying for help to tear it down. I've really wanted to open myself up to people other than those whom I feel safe with.

I felt like I was having a break through and really stepping outside of my comfort zone, until all of this. Of course I run right back behind it and shut down. I put on my tough girl image, the one that says, "I don't care if you don't like me! You don't matter to me anymore either." I've closed the door on several friendships after incidents like this.

At the Freshman game today, which we WON (34-6), she did it again. I tried to say Hi twice. She just looked at me and didn't say anything. I thought, "Ok...I'm done trying. If you're going to be like that I can easily be done too (my wall growing thicker with each incident).

Then just as the games ending, she asks me a question, like nothing's wrong. Now I'm thinking what is up? Did she just not see me the two times I walked right in front of her and waved? Am I reading into it because I'm expecting this. I don't know...it's just too much! I don't want to deal with this high school drama at my age!

Just when I'm really ready to tear down my walls...something scares me and back I go to my safe distant place!

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Stop The Drama

Lately I feel like I've been getting caught in a lot of drama. I'm not one of those people that enjoy sitting around gossiping & complaining about people. I think that's why I've always found it easier to just hang out with the guys, talk about sports and crack jokes.

Lately however, I've gotten thrown into the middle of a lot of crap. I try not to get upset and sucked into it...but it's hard. I even started breaking out! That's when I said, "Zit's is where I draw the line!"

So yesterday I decided to stop adding fuel to the fire by joining in. I made a decision to take the high road. I sent out an email to everyone explaining a few things that I knew they probably didn't want to hear. But the bottom line is, everyone can sit around complaining, talking about each other and getting mad, but at the end of the day nothing's changed except making a lot of people bitter and angry towards each other.

My email was very nice but made a point. I received a couple positive feedbacks thanking me for putting it out there in a nice way. Tonight we have a team dinner...we'll see if anythings changed. I definitely will stick to my plan. I might get excluded because of it, but I will feel less stressed and better about myself for not joining in not to mention...maybe my face will clear up before the weekend! Gosh...being a girl sucks sometimes...we are all SO DRAMA!!

Monday, November 2, 2009

Monday Monday

During the weekend, it always seems like Monday is looming over me like a dark cloud. Today I decided to embrace my Monday. Yes I have to go to work, but on a positive note, I don't have to be there until 10:00 a.m. I got to sleep in and with the time change I feel pretty good.

On Monday's I work for a bookkeeper (I'm an Independent Contractor), then I work for a Commercial Real Estate Development Co. the rest of the week. Today me and my two bosses (the bookkeeper & office mgr. at the Real Estate Co.) are going to see the new Michael Jackson movie "This Is It." I think from now on instead of thinking, "Monday again!" I'm going to try and figure out something fun to look forward to every Monday. I wonder if this will work?

Saturday, October 31, 2009

High School Football Tickets on Craigs List?

It's been tough being consistent with updating my blog lately. With football season in full swing, I get writers block because all I can think about is football!

Oh speaking of football, did I tell ya that next week is a HUGE game for Edison H.S. Football? Ya well Freshman, JV & Varsity are all undefeated. We play our rival school Fountain Valley for the league championship.

The game was supposed to be at the local Junior College because it holds a larger capacity. However this year it completely sold out in 1 day! People are selling tickets for $30.00 or $40.00 on Craig's List. WHAT? Isn't that crazy?

They decided to move the venue to a larger stadium. It's now at Cal State Fullerton. They're selling tickets only to Edison students & the parents of students (tons of people couldn't get tix to watch their own son's play) I would love to hear if someone actually pays for those Craigs List tix when it gets close to game day because they couldn't get them anywhere else.

Anyways, to give you an idea of the stuff going on this next week to prepare. Tomorrow all of the parents meet to do posters, goody bags and clean & decorate the boys lockers (it's pretty gross!) Last year one of the boys had an old, smelly, moldy breakfast, not to mention the stench from their sweaty unwashed clothes! We bring tons of Lysol & fabric softner sheets to try to get rid of the smell!!

On Wed. the Freshman have a big dinner. JV/Varsity have theirs on Thursday. Then all the parents show up at the H.S. @ 2:00 A.M. (YES...I said 2:00 A.M., it's not a typo) on Friday morning to decorate every inch of the school with posters, balloons and signs along the street. It's a BIG tradition. It's not only for the championship, but also for the "BATTLE OF THE BELL". Which the winning school gets to keep for the whole year until the next match up. We've had it for the last 4 years.

It's going to be fun...I'll post pics. Also, they announced that they will broadcast the game live on the internet. I'll find the link and post it.

GO EDISON...BEAT FV!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Can You Fly a Football Player?

I promised to put up some pictures I took of the Edison High School vs. Newport Harbor game (56-22 Edison Freshman). To my surprise I caught the PERFECT shot! My son, Elijah, was returning a punt, when he juked this kid. In a last attempt to tackle him, the kid reached out grabbed hold of his belt and I captured THIS...

The Answer: YES. Elijah Herrera flew a football player like a kite!LOL!

Here's how his run progressed...

The other team couldn't bring him down...but he finally tripped to end the great run.

Anyways...I LOVE that first kite flying shot. I told him, "It looks like you're running so fast that you lifted him off the ground." I think I'm going to blow it up to a poster size and surprise him with it.

Here is his Touchdown run later in the game...

I was really happy with all of my pictures this week. I caught a bunch of shots in mid air of a lot of the players. The team is going to be really excited.

I'm such a perfectionist...I've been pretty upset with my shots the last few weeks. FINALLY some decent ones.

SIDE NOTE: VARSITY & J.V. WON TOO!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Another Win For Edison High School

We are on a roll! Last week the freshmen team for Edison H.S. won a hard battle against Esperanza 16-14. Elijah scored both of the touchdowns...which was very cool because it was his first this season. I told him, "You waited till it really counted!" That was our first official league game.

ELIJAH HERRERA #9- TOUCHDOWN #1

TOUCHDOWN #2

Juking & Out Running to the End Zone
He is having such an awesome season. He's spent his whole life on that field watching his older brothers play. It's so nice to see him finally out there showing HIS stuff! He also plays outside linebacker and is doing incredible on defense too. I'm so proud of him!

We just got back from their second league game against Newport Harbor H.S. We killed them 56-22. We put our second string in when it was 50-8. We had a complete team win...everyone played well. Elijah got another TD and caught several passes and had a great punt return juking about five guys.

I'll post some pics after I upload them. I LOVE Football season!!

SIDE NOTE: Our Varsity team is ranked #1 in CA and one report has us at 4th in the Nation...GO EDISON!!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

DON'T SOOSH ME!

Do you ever have those weekends that are so busy, you feel like you never even had one? That's how mine was...so now it's only Tuesday and I'm wiped out!

It felt like a Monday. My boss had a huge project that I had to complete today (which I normally love because I like a challenge and when I'm busy the day fly's by). The problem was, I had to use his computer to do it. So, he left for the gym (he works out every day at 10:30 & then heads to lunch & doesn't get back until 2:00 p.m).

No problem, I knew I could get it done in that time frame. Well, it was soooo time consuming, but I finished it 15 minutes before he got back. Then he decided he wanted things to look different than he had previously said. I changed several pictures/layouts and made all the copies to get ready for their presentation.

We were on a time crunch and I was running out of time. He kept asking me, "How's it coming? Is it ready? I need that stuff!" I was stressing and some of the pictures weren't printing. Every time I tried to tell him he would say, "SHHHH...just hand it to me!"

I was still printing, but gave it to him and thought, "OK, I'll just add the extra pictures in as they come out." He yelled, "What are you still printing? I'm trying to put these all together, I thought they were all here." I tried to tell him what was happening, when he sooshed me AGAIN! I'm sorry but that is a HUGE pet peeve...I can't stand to be sooshed. I think it's SO RUDE!

Then I heard him say from the other room, "I can't do anything because SOMEONE'S on MY computer."

WHAT...Are you kidding me? It wasn't my choice to be on his computer, he didn't want to forward it to me and told me too.

I do pretty well to hold my tongue at work (unlike home when my husband tries to shoosh me.) But the problem with holding it in...I feel like I'm going to explode or cry! So I said, "You asked me a question and I'm trying to answer you." I don't think it came out super rude, but I think he knew I was mad. I was completely quiet after that. He tried to make a few light joking comments, but I wasn't in the mood. He told me thank you as I was leaving, but I was mad.

I left work 45 minutes late and felt like screaming! Once inside my car I could feel myself tearing up from holding in my anger. I hate to cry...I feel so weak. So instead of totally breaking down, I decided to rant and rave to all of you.

I hate days like this.........